The $*!* hits the fan

Once again I make a bad choice in women. This one managed to top the last failure even, as she’s apparently pregnant with the other guys kid… and she plans on going through with it. The last part is her decision, but the fact that she cheated on me… I can’t forgive that. The last time I tried that I hated myself, and I’m not going to put myself through that again. I won’t give any specifics, but I had rather liked this one, and had been able to turn a blind eye (or a thick head) to her… quirks up until now. The cheating just blows it. Those of you who know me know my thoughts on lying and such. I hate it and will not stand for it. I am very hard to get back into niceness with once someone has lied to me, cheating falls under the same category, but with the exception that there will never be the same relationship as before. I’m not stupid enough to go back to someone once they’ve burnt me like that.

Needless to say, there is more, but I’m going to leave it at this, at least for this subject.

As for the rest of life, I’m still employed by taco bell, not going anywhere, and am working on getting out with a finally surefire way to fix it this time. I’m joining the navy. Those that say that it is better to join the marines or the army… I’m not a foot soldier, don’t want to be, and never will be. I’m joining the navy and going to get some marketable skills for when I do leave. Heck, perhaps I’ll even enjoy it and decide to stay in until I retire. The pay and benifits certainly arent bad, so if I actually enjoy it, its a possibility. Either way, the recruiter said, after seeing my mini-asvab score, that I’d likely get offered advanced training, which certainly means more money and better skills, depending on what I want to do and what they will offer me. All things considered, I’m going down tomorrow and starting the paperwork (other than the background check information that I’m almost done filling out).

Life’s Upturn, or is it just preparing me for another fall?

I know its been quite a while since I’ve blogged, but for the most part things had been going much the same… Now… things seem to have taken a turn for the better.

Where should I start… Well, I’ve been looking around one of those free internet personals sites for a while, went on a date with the girl that made me feel like I was walking around with a child, etc, but now… Tuesday I went on a date with another from that site, this one is normally sized, and from her pics I was expecting her to be a bit chubby, but when I actually saw her… I was rather pleasantly surprised, it was just the pictures making her look chubby. And of course the fact that she belongs to one of my… I guess you could almost say fetishes… she’s asian. Redheads and Asians have always been my weaknesses, but enough of that. We went out and just talked and the like, had dinner and caught a movie after a while. I had gone to pick her up at 6:30 pm and I didn’t get back to my place until 4:30AM, which certainly surprised me to no end, I’ve never had a date last that long. *chuckle* and wednesday, after I got a bit of sleep, I went to hang out with her some more, got to her place about 3pm and didn’t get back in until 5:30am this morning. I admit she’s strange, and has her problems, but for the most part that doesn’t particularly bother me, especially as I find I rather like her, and from all signs, she seems to feel much the same. Admittedly, I havent tried kissing her, and we certainly havent…. gone all the way, or anything, but I’m trying to keep this slow until I feel its.. right.

And now the other thing. The group I had been playing D&D with in roanoke somewhat dissolved a few months ago, too much of the group couldn’t play on friday nights because of conflicts with college classes on saturday mornings, so we stopped playing. I’ve finally found a group to play with locally though. I met them wednesday night, we chatted and the like (apparently they had had some real… wackos try to join previously, so wanted to get a feel for me before they made any final decisions, but the end result is I’m running a game on friday night, so thats certainly an excellent thing for me, though I do have to make sure to write up something today so I actually have something to run

Anyway, better get started on that. More to come when I have more to post of course.

Things generated by names

Thanks to japanator, I’ve been playing around with some random generators that take your name and transform it into something else, such as a weapon.

James

james’s katana (Attack level:57)

name origin

Raidur

from the side

name origin

Rather amusing if you ask me. All images taken from

Relief

Well, the car is packed, sans my laptop, toiletries and D&D stuff. I can only describe this feeling as one of immense relief. I’m finally going to get away and enjoy myself for a while, no work to worry about, just me and people I count as close as family, yet without all the annoying blood ties and the like. In a couple hours I’m gonna hit the hay, then once I get up I’ve got D&D as usual, then off to the bash. Ack, that reminds me, have to pack my camera. I’ll get that in a bit, but for now I’m gonna goof off until I go to bed.

Bash is coming up

God, I can’t wait until friday. I’m closing the next few nights… Every night up to and including thursday, to be exact, then friday I’m playing D&D and then heading for the Bash. These nights at work suck all the more because I know that soon I won’t have to deal with it for a week and I’ll be in the company of people that are more than friends, almost family, cept the whole blood relation part, but you can’t have everything. Still have to pack, but I’m gonna do my clothes in the morning, then do most of the rest tomorrow night and put everything in my car thursday night after work, then sleep for most of the day before leaving for D&D and the Bash. Gah, can’t wait can’t wait!!

Dreamscape

I just woke up from the strangest dream, and I’d only been asleep approximately two and a half hours. I doubt anyone that reads my blog will understand or even try to interpret it, but for some reason I feel the need to get it down in writing since I rarely remember any dreams, especially with this sort of clarity.

I’m not entirely sure how it began, but I’m in a house, presumably one I am familiar with, and I am rearranging things, tables, chairs, lamps, etcetera. My mother… or some other female figure, not entirely sure at this point… is there, helping I think. After a bit, my brother comes into the place. I get the feeling that he’s just gotten home from work recently or something. Anyway, he explains that he’s going out for the weekend, something about a camping trip, then goes… I get the feeling to pack or shower or something, its not entirely clear. A couple minutes after he leaves, the dream gets strange. Outside, behind a mountain range, explosions start happening… at least thats what I think they are, there is no sound to them, only a roiling in the clouds, reminiscent of a nuclear bomb that you always see in movies, and then a shockwave that rattles the house. By this point I’ve set up a couple of lamps and, well, the whole room. There are books all along the walls and two lamps nearby. As the shockwaves begin passing through, the lamps start trying to fall over. I manage to get to them and lay them on the floor before anything happens, but otherwise I seem to be unconcerned about the situation, content to sit and watch the roiling and subsequent shockwaves that are constantly happening. The female, on the other hand, is extremely concerned, almost to the point of being frantic, and is closing shades on the windows, an action that just seems to mildly annoy me. I remember thinking at one point that I hoped that my brother hadn’t left the house yet, as driving in this probably wouldn’t be that easy, but other than that, the dream pretty much continued with the explosion and shockwave repeating over and over in rapid sucession until I woke up, feeling somewhat uneasy.

really not sure what this might even possibly mean, other than that life sucks, but I hope anyone that reads this enjoys their trip into the warped mind of myself. I’m serious when I say that this is a dream that I just woke up from, not ten minutes ago at this point. Now I’m gonna try to get back to sleep.

Life, the Universe, and Everything… or not

Life goes on like a badly written play. It still sucks, the job still sucks, and I’m not any nearer any women than I was before, heck, I might even be further away. Lets see, the lady thats in england for the year… she’s now seeing someone, not that I can blame her, but still, I had begun to hope a bit. Guess I should have expected worse than I had. Ah well, another lesson in life slammed home. Of course on the other hand, I’ve started talking to someone that is possibly even more interesting, and she’s just up in blacksburg. She’s going to school there for a computer engineering degree… and she plays WoW. Not the best of games in my opinion, but its a start and certainly gives us a few things in common. Oh yeah, and she thinks that my collecting swords is cool. I’ll keep talking to her and see where we go with it, perhaps I’ll end up with a date some time soon. Good thing my car gets good gas mileage, otherwise it might be a bit… difficult to even think about such.